It’s been SO long...so I had a good cry.
It’s been nearly half a year since I last updated this blog. UGH. exactly what I knew would happen! Sooooo here’s just a snippet of what I want to cover today, that in no way covers what’s happened over the last 5 months:
Last night I dreamed of water.
Then in the middle of the night I awoke abruptly to water splashing in the bathroom. Getting up to investigate, I learned the bum gun (look it up) randomly broke in the middle of the night and was spraying water everywhere in the bathroom. dealt with that. went back to sleep.
I woke at 5:30am as usual, but just wasn’t feel good or even ok at all. I was energetically depleted, tired, sad and a bit angry as well. I felt pressure and deadlines from work and myself. as I arrived at my villa (I’ve been staying elsewhere while I renovate a new place…more on that later), I walk into one of the bathrooms that’s being re-done, only to find the floors soaked from another dripping toilet.
Two floods, in one day.
There’s no coincidence there.
And then it all started to make sense when I completely lost it while talking to my best friend. I needed to cry. I needed to vent. to stop holding it together and forging ahead with my own agendas / wants / desires.
Sometimes shit gets real and you just gotta allow the mind and body to rest. I’ve been “too tired” to meditate, hold space and connect with myself, spirit guides and ancestors, but it’s beautiful to absolutely know they are always with me, giving me warnings and signs as to what’s to come and what’s needed.
The water break before the flood?
The nudge to release the hatches?
Whatever the direct intent was, I noted and felt it. And now I’m feeling so much better.
All this to say, there are no coincidences in life. everything is all connected even when we feel that we aren’t. And for that, I am grateful.